My Story

The path to this work was not linear.

I arrived through a Labyrinth of chaos, creativity, heartbreak, healing, spiritual awakening, emotional collapse, and learning how to become fully human.

The Shape-Shifter

(Childhood Sensitivity & Early Masking)

As a child, I was extremely sensitive, imaginative, emotional, and full of energy. I questioned authority constantly, felt things deeply, and sensed there was far more happening beneath the surface of reality than the adults around me seemed able to explain.

Very early on, I learned how to shape-shift.

I became skilled at adapting myself into whatever version felt safest, funniest, coolest, most accepted, or least likely to be rejected. Looking back, I think many people do this without realizing it. We disconnect from our authentic nature in order to survive socially, emotionally, and sometimes physically.

I could move between many different circles and types of people, and in a strange way I often felt welcomed into most of them — yet rarely fully at home in any of them.

Looking back now, I think part of that came from not fully feeling at home within myself yet.

My “yes” and “no” were not as strong as they are today, so I often flowed into other people’s worlds, identities, and directions before fully learning how to stand rooted in my own.

I also grew up deeply connected to mystery.

I had vivid dreams, strong intuition, emotional sensitivity, and experiences that made the world feel alive and multidimensional long before I had language for any of it. But slowly, like many kids, I learned to mistrust those experiences because they didn’t fit neatly into the version of reality I was being taught by parents, teachers, and the culture around me.

School often felt almost physically painful. Sitting still inside rigid systems while suppressing my natural energy and curiosity felt deeply unnatural from the beginning. Around third or fourth grade, I was prescribed Adderall in an attempt to “fix” me.

And while I know my parents were doing what they believed was best, the experience left me feeling disconnected from my creativity, emotional expression, and personality.

Underneath it all, I simply wanted to feel accepted, understood, and loved.

Learning Survival

(Teen Years / Military School / Atlanta Insight).

I struggled with authority, emotional overwhelm, addiction, anger, self-destruction, and feeling completely lost in who I actually was. I created storms in relationships and projected externally what I didn’t yet know how to process internally.

At fourteen years old, I was sent to military boarding school.

That experience intensified my feeling of separation from myself and taught me even more about masking vulnerability in order to survive.

Not long after, I was sent to a rehabilitation program for teenagers called Atlanta Insight.

Oddly enough, one of the most transformative parts of that experience wasn’t the recovery work itself — it was the human connection.

For the first time in my life, I experienced people crying together, laughing together, hugging, singing, telling the truth, and genuinely holding emotional space for one another in real time.

That changed me.

It showed me that healing wasn’t just about fixing behavior.

It was about being seen.
Being honest.
Being supported.
Being human together.

Music, Chaos & Becoming

(Bands / Creativity / Sparkle Donkeys / Searching)

In my twenties, I searched for myself through music, creativity, comedy, relationships, altered states, performance, and constant reinvention.

I played in punk bands, screamed my emotions into microphones, and lost myself in rhythm and live performance. Later, I co-created a chaotic and hilarious comedy collective called Sparkle Donkeys where we made absurd sketch videos, costumes, characters, and live performances together.

Humor, creativity, and emotional expression have always been connected to my soul.

But underneath all the creativity, I was still struggling.

I moved through addiction patterns, toxic relationships, emotional chaos, codependency, lack of focus, self-abandonment, and long stretches of searching for identity, meaning, and love outside of myself.

Eventually, life cracked me open hard enough that I knew something had to fundamentally change.

The Awakening

(Florida / Yoga / Kundalini / Gabriel / Mystery)

That decision became the beginning of a massive internal transformation.

For the first time, I intentionally stepped away from many of the environments, habits, and identities that had shaped me. I began practicing yoga and meditation daily simply because something inside me knew I needed it.

And by some mixture of grace, intuition, and surrender… I stayed with it long enough for everything to begin changing.

What began as self-growth slowly became a full spiritual awakening.

Then, in my thirty-third year of life, after a painful breakup and a period of deep emotional unraveling, I went through what I can only describe as a kundalini awakening.

My perception of reality completely changed.

What could have easily been labeled a psychological breakdown became, for me, a profound spiritual initiation. My intuition intensified dramatically. Dreams became vivid and symbolic. Synchronicities multiplied. My emotional world opened in ways I had never experienced before.

During meditation one night, I had a direct experience with what I know to be Archangel Gabriel.

My body vibrated intensely as if I had become a gong being struck by consciousness itself. That experience permanently altered the way I understood reality, spirit, and the nature of being human.

From that point forward, my spiritual path became direct and experiential.

I began developing a conscious relationship with spirit guides, intuitive communication, symbolism, dreams, synchronicity, and the deeper unseen dimensions of life that had quietly surrounded me since childhood.

And honestly… it felt a little like finally receiving my Hogwarts letter.

Looking back now, I can see how much the stories I loved growing up — Stargate, Star Wars, Harry Potter, Doctor Who, fantasy worlds, multidimensional mythologies — were actually much closer to the symbolic nature of reality than I realized at the time.

Those stories helped prepare me to trust intuition, mystery, imagination, symbolism, and the deeper magic of being human.

Becoming Human Again

(Embodiment / Emotional Healing / Akashic Work / Leadership)

Over the years that followed, I devoted myself deeply to consciousness studies, emotional healing, dreamwork, nervous system healing, embodiment, mysticism, men’s work, kundalini yoga, breathwork, Akashic Records studies, and the relationship between perception and lived reality.

The Akashic Records in particular became a profound turning point in my life.

They shifted the way I understood soul purpose, healing, consciousness, intuition, and the deeper blueprint underneath human experience.

I spent years traveling the country, exploring different communities, healing modalities, and transformational spaces while rebuilding my relationship with myself from the ground up.

Along the way, one of the biggest lessons I learned was this:

Healing is not about escaping humanity.

It’s about becoming more fully human.

It’s about learning how to feel honestly.
How to stop abandoning yourself.
How to move from reaction into conscious response.
How to reconnect with joy, creativity, embodiment, play, truth, and authentic self-expression.

A massive turning point came through deep emotional healing work and transformational group spaces where I experienced the power of authentic human connection and emotional expression at a level that created consciousness shifts as profound as any plant medicine experience I had ever encountered.

Those spaces felt like initiations into adulthood.

Not adulthood as performance.
Not adulthood as survival.
But adulthood as emotional responsibility, presence, integrity, self-awareness, grounded leadership, and authentic self-trust.

I began understanding how much human suffering comes from unresolved emotional pain and unconscious childhood survival patterns running beneath the surface of our lives.

And I also discovered that emotions themselves are not the enemy.

They are gateways.

Gateways into healing.
Into truth.
Into deeper self-awareness.
Into liberation.

Rawthentic Rainbow

(Present Day / Integration / Invitation)

Today, Rawthentic Rainbow is the living expression of everything I’ve studied, survived, remembered, integrated, laughed through, cried through, and transformed.

Because being human is messy.
And sacred.
And painful.
And hilarious.
And beautiful.

Darkness and light.
The whole rainbow.

I believe awakening is not about transcending life.

It’s about becoming more deeply alive within it.

I believe laughter is medicine.
I believe emotions are sacred.
I believe play heals.
I believe consciousness is creative.
I believe reality is far more mysterious and multidimensional than we’ve been taught.
And I believe fully expressed humans give other humans permission to become fully expressed too.

I walk the path of a grounded mystic.
A playful Jedi Wizard of sorts.

Not someone above humanity —
but someone deeply devoted to being fully inside of it while remaining connected to the mystery beyond it.

And if something in you resonates with this path…

there’s a good chance some part of you remembers it too. 🌈